La chenille se transforme en papillon.

Sing out Loud

2010-11-15T08:37:00.000-08:00

Beat out the Rhythm You want from my life
Let the sweetest song comes out as an offering..
Stretchhhh!!!!!

You Name It

2010-11-09T17:17:00.001-08:00

'' I love to dance but I don't know how to be a real dance.
I love to sing but I am not so good at it.
I love guitar but I just know 3 tones. (chords)
I love drums and I have a drum stick but I don't know how to play drums.
I love making video but I can just do it with my handphone and I do not know too much about it.
I love to swim but the way I swim was wrong.
I love to cycle but I have no time for it.
I know I have alot of things that I can't or just know a bit of it
but I am still happy cause God created me,
because I started to go to church .
I tell my mum to go to church too
and I became braver that before! ''

Chow Pei Yan , 11yrs Old

Hear the cry of her heart.
A longing for God.
Extraordinary from the ordinary..
I just smiled when I read that.
She's gonna have a great future.
:)

2010-02-26T07:28:00.001-08:00

Speaking to this mountain,
moving to the ocean
with Your authority
given to me.

2010-02-24T08:44:00.000-08:00

Lets defend and protect the things we love the best.

Birds protect their nests, dog protect their puppies, whats more human protecting our home our family and things that are close to our hearts.

lets not forget the outliers in our lives. :D

Silence

2010-01-25T07:15:00.000-08:00

the silence

he can be scary.
he can be so timely.
he can be just by your side.
he can be so close to your heart.
he can be my like, your dislike.

people change, people remain the same, people of different personalities
people with different goals and priorites in life, people with different Number 1s.

Interesting.

the only race that i know i will never end halfway nor give up.
the more you grow, the bigger the obstacle is there.
there are times whereby tiredness overwhelms you , when clueless just stopped you in ur track.

Breathe life

2009-12-07T07:06:00.000-08:00

More and More.

This is My Home.

2009-11-28T11:10:00.000-08:00

I couldnt help but tear as i was reading the 10th anniversary book.
From our humble beginings , to 9 stones to now in the thousand. Many who see it now sees that everything is easy, but it wasnt. Out of the brokeness , God's anointing and hands upon us.
Truely Romance , Spice and oil is the essence.

Heart of God church is more than just a church, it is where my destiny and future is,
it is my home.

Mix And Match

2009-11-03T18:25:00.000-08:00

I see people bowing their heads at the calvery
Not one , but Many that i cant count.

There i was a soldier.
Taking the sword hitting it on the ground.
Next i raise it high up and hit the heart.

Pump Pump Pump.
Can you hear my heart beat.

heehee

===========================

Halfway through Heaven is Real.
Cant wait to read more!

LaserTag is just too irresistable.
I just feel like taking the gun and play !

So BOOMZ Right .
Hahaha

2009-11-03T18:13:00.000-08:00

LOVE GOD, LOVE PEOPLE , LOVE LIFE.

Ihave a dream.
A vision
Hold on to the vision.

Love to the extra mile.

XOXO

2009-10-09T08:23:00.000-07:00

F. C.

it will come.
it will flow.

2009-09-08T08:58:00.000-07:00

museum are things that are worth keep for.
worth to be seen from generations to generations.
what you do for a day ,
what you prepared for that day
what you said on that day
its going to make a difference
because all these are going to be noted and kept.
not for your sake.
but for others.
to be inspired and to run the race like never before.

ive been thinking about amusement parks now adays.
sciece? heroes? connecting to others?
good thoughts and thoughts that you think are never higher than God.
so true. hahs

Chrislynn is awesome.
God touched her like never before even though she is trapped in a house full of security cameras.
Jamine can preach. thats how i felt and believe though she its not believed on the outside
my brother can play drums to the public in the stadium.

i believe.
do you?

2009-08-17T00:31:00.000-07:00

I just feel like saying

I miss Pastors!

I CAN

2009-07-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

past 3 days have been amazing,
its really such a privilege to be born in this era and to be in HOGC.
seeing Dr . AR Bernard and Pastor Kong together was just speechless!!!
now its the time to Go! and work on the invinsible.

Prayers really work.
God just lifted my thoughts higher these few days, much higher.
now, an amor bearer.

Heart of God church School is going to come to past, can you smell it?

speaking to this mountain, moving over the ocean.

I can lead 1000 Tampines Kids.
I can own a house as big as IKEA.
I can give lots of money .
I can do well in exams.
I can get my family saved.

I CAN

RROAR

2009-07-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

cant stop , cant stop thinking.
cant stop.

Ah!

2009-06-28T09:22:00.001-07:00

this whole week have been great, but i cant wait for next week.
Pastor Joakim's sermon was mind blowing once again though i've heard it for the second time,
good things are worth hearing twice.

MJ left us, but as i read that when he was young, his father would always call him Big Nose ,
it breaks my heart.
the power of tongue is so strong.
speak live not death.

Desire. Inspire. Perspire

2009-06-25T08:17:00.006-07:00

this is really the day.

the day God revealed to me starting of this year in Mae-Ann 's house
that Cheryl's going to do visitation together with me.
And it came to past today.

Visitatiion Marathon
First stop was Jamie's house.
From hiding in the cupboard to scare Jamie to never ending jump shots
and running away from the dog .
Photos coming up soon .
it's just great creating memories together.
and encouraging Jamie.
She even remembered the number of times she came for service
and when she said she miss church.
it melts my heart.
hahaha

Second stop was Mei Xian's.
exciting to pray for the softening of her mum's heart
under the hot sun till cheryl almost fell down.
amidst all, i know that though her flesh is weak, but her spirit 's willing.
really great to have her ther and knowing what to get for mei xian.
because of her close relationship.
cool.. i love that.
God answers prayers.
Mei xian and her mum were surprised when there's liang teh and impact sweets.
cheryl should be there to see th mum's smile.
it was all worth it to just bring a smile to her face.
and they were listening to nobody when we reached.
hahahha!

Third stop was Susanna's.
that was the highlight
because i could really see how Cheryl wants her friend to come and get saved.
before i could even ask her mum, she took the initiative to ask.
thats the power.
the Desire.

she's now Inspired to bring friends because there's this desire.
and we Perspire all the hours travelling.
Yet at the end, its to D.I.P in God's presence.

becuase she's going to fast and pray for Susanna to come .
Exciting.

i really enjoy inspiring her, becuase she inspires me too.Cheryl , you're going to be a cg singer. i hold this believe in you.dont fear, have faith.

today is just for You.

the title

2009-06-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

la chenille se transforme en papillion.
transormed from a caterpillar to butterfly.
everylife's gotta be like that.

its bout others!

Impact Domino

2009-06-16T09:30:00.000-07:00

im impacted by peiying. she just sent an sms of how a verse have impacted her .

Home Sweet Home

2009-06-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

When I saw Benjamin on security last saturday, i couldnt help tearing though i dont even know him well. From a lost child to where he is now. A place where now he knows his purpose , destiny and finally a Home.

Each Lifesong has
different lyrics
different stand
different significance

Nanny Nanny Poo Poo

2009-06-14T10:16:00.000-07:00

Mr . Fear.
you're not going to bring me down

speaking to this big fat mountain
into the ocean.

OUT!

HAHAHAHAHAH.

G , O , Go!

2009-06-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

time after time,
its back again.
time after time,
i gotta fight it again
time after time
theres always this voice surrendering
time after time
it never fails to bring me back down again

yet time after time
im not going to let go of this.

now, not just hang in there
but jump pass it.

you can do it , woman.

Freedom

2009-06-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYBODY !

CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING!
THE MINUTE THE CLOCK STRUCK 10AM TODAY,

I COULDNT STOP SMILLINGGG!
THERËS JUST THIS JOY COMING OUT!

CANT WAIT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
THERE"S AN EXPECTANCY > WHOO>>!!

BUT I COULDT GO TO AMT TODAY :(

when freedom comes, we fight.
strong as an army.
each one, an arm.
HAIYAH!

$$$

2009-05-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

why does it always have to start off because of money .
maybe one day i'll just get a $5 pocket money and i'll still be happy.
because i made a stand in God.

money money money.
money cant buy a shephard's heart.

No Link

2009-05-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

I guess it takes a lot to be different,
especially when we are breaking away from the tradition.
like how my mum always want me to focus on my studies
and always putting my studies as my first prority.
these two years,
there have been changes.
like how when i stand alone in my family ,
problems come, days pass,
people change , environment changes.
naturally what makes me wanna keep going has changed too.

remembered when i was young,
aspirations , ambitions comes yet
switches amidst changes, everything.
but not an ambition which i felt that
''Yes, this is what i wanna be "
so assured and confirmed.

hmph.. as times passes,
its revealed
that my character , thoughts , decisions.
complement into what im gonna be.

new love,
new strength,
new wisdom.

God, Yeah!

2009-05-02T09:37:00.001-07:00

Holiess of Holiess
sing a wayyy home,

Yeah

TrainRides & Litters

2009-05-02T09:21:00.001-07:00

there was this day on the mrt where i saw this mum-daughter talking to each other
apart from the casual talking, there was something in there that i noticed.
the intimacy and closeness they have with each other, and how it was they relate to each other like a friend-to-friend talk.

And Next to them , there was this couple talking to each other , just enjoying each others company.

Maybe its an unusal sight in Singapore that catches my attention. Ha.

Relationships with Love.

On the other hand, while walking home from school one day, this uncle just casually dropped his piece of paper litter on the ground.

And i thoguht to myself, if a kid saw that action.
You know what he'll tell the uncle?
The kid'll say " Uncle, you dropped your paper on the floor, Let me help you to pick it up."

Guess by then , the experience will be etched in the Uncle 's mind and decided to not threw litter on the ground naturally.

360 TurnOver

2009-04-03T10:20:00.000-07:00

have been thinking about status recently
i've seen many using status to put pple down,
gain respect, show off skills etc..
i dont know
but i felt that
status is not there t make pple feel insecure.

i guess my thoughts, words arent really flowing with th title.
there's a link just that while typing i forgot whats it.
you figure out then.

gotta think , not just sitting laid back on th backseat,
im glad i made th decision to be available.

COME ON!

2009-04-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

I remembered you calling me the first thing in the morning to wish me
Happy Birthday

its the little things that melts my heart.

See you on Saturday
cant wait to see you raise your hands once again
to God.

2009-03-30T03:45:00.000-07:00

I cant believe that my sis lock me outside the house just because i didnt buy cheezels home. no matter how hard i shook and banged the door, she still refused to open the door. so she gave me $4 to go down and get her cheezels before she opens the door for me to get home. -_-!

how cruel. lesson learnt is to remember to bring keys.

On a sidenote yesterday while bus 21 to Peiwei's.

Yo: ... fast from 6 to 6.
F : But we wont be awake?
Yo: The rest has school.

Hmm.. I've caught something . Have you? :)

Touch

2009-03-23T04:57:00.000-07:00

This strange feeling when
you put your arms over me
As we walked
i thought to myself
why

it is A touch that is there yet so distant

dont worry, its a she not a he.

2009-03-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

standing at the crossroad,
with many thoughts running
but not many solutions

it all just happens,
when you thought you're still in the honeymoon period
there's another hill coming towards you

i can feel it coming.

sometimes its just so nonesense .

God , i really need You now.

closer, more strength.

Not fear anymore.

Complicated Yet So Real

2009-03-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

Stayover at Yo's was complicated yet it seemed so real
at the balcony talking with the breeze blowing through the hair.
hahhs.

I realised that i'm living in the aspiration of being a tcher. Wow.

when God says Im good enough , it mean I am.
And See you back in Singpost soon, Aerina.

Are you intuned?

2009-02-07T09:50:00.000-08:00

this week was totally going back to God. getting closer to God was simply overpowering.
no words can describe the intangible feeling that lingers so closely yet knowing that He 's there.

we're going to be overcomers in the spiritual realm! its really so true when i really was being assured by God that its going to be alright, that she 's going to raise up her hand and feel the presence. indeed, at the end, she even teared, what a precious tear. ha haa.

with the rod that Moses hold, i hold with the fear of God, togther with the kids , we walk through many paths .

need not worry for He has a seat for you, even if others are way faster than you.

love God, love life , love people.

life can be such an awesome adventure!

beautiful sunday!

2009-02-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

mum lost her phone in a cab, tried calling her phone for a long time but its off. concluding that its either the passenger or the malay cabbie who took it, we decided to cut off the line. before we can inform mum about it, she called and said in chinese

mum: can you sms the taxi uncle to return my memory card.
we: HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

mybrother burst out laughing immediately.
i think my mum will dislike malays even more now. no offence though. HA,!

on another hand,
dad used a scissors to cut and open the packet of nuts when its a ziplock bag.

HAHAH... what a sunday!

dont let your creativity be determined by the results on the paper.
break it
now or never!

IKEA hotdog

2009-01-23T02:41:00.000-08:00

after staring at uncountable words on the screen,
i 've decided to turn away for a rest.
through the glass wall i saw this Ikea paper bag by the computer table.
Here i am craving for Ikea hotdog.

nonetheless.. i cant wait for the reunion diner in qiwei's house.
and my mind is telling me to take a cab later.

i agree. haha.

mix and match

2009-01-06T09:22:00.000-08:00

2009's going to be a great year.

increase in faith

in wisdom

in thinking

no more a cobbler.

i see a big piece of land

stars,people , lives.

i cant believe that my tv exploded in silence.

i forsee days of silent nights.

haha...

i should hang a bus directory on my neck wherever i go.

till then!

Jason the real man

2008-12-17T18:21:00.001-08:00

Jason's going to Pasir Ris Sec next year. I knew it , I knew it! Told ya!Ha haa aaa!
Great powerful guy going there who 's going to bring in truckloads of friends and seeing their lives being changed. Just like how he has already 3 confirm friends coming for next week Christmas service despite many going overseas. And even his neighbour is coming. Woa.
prayer warrior and thats how he elevated himself this year.
and its just from a 12year old kid .so amaaazing!
cant wait to see him in the green pandan uniform. Awesome!

Waterfall

2008-12-14T21:35:00.000-08:00

Gavin is really a powerful and real person. Like how he dreams, it just flows like a dna to Arvan.
when i read on how he wants to be like Garrett, Godric to be like Dominic and Choong Kai to be like Charleston .

i thought to myself, who i wanted to be. I just want to be like Yolanda , a replica of Mae-Ann. She is really a leader who impacts me and bring me out of comfort zone to a higher level. The little details that she does , never fails to push me further.

dream big

God spoke to me in the washroom.

I will inflate youto your maximum.

the assurance.

There was a breakthrough in prayer when i lay my hands on her in cch last week. The push and confidence that i didnt had before.It just spoke to her so clearly.

Leaders will rise in the next generation.

God is good.

I know you know

2008-11-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

i dislike the word

Í dont know.

what a neither here nor there word.

it shall not come out from my mouth so often.

Believe it or not.

2008-11-29T10:12:00.000-08:00

i always wondered which is the best part of cch service that i love the most.

everything is great before the service, where you'll see people preparing for sound, projection, flyers, logistics games etc. and during service, its really where you see all the jigsaw puzzles piecing together into one Big jigsaw. Meanwhile, bus loads of kids whom arrived rush into mpr1 to a place they can declare as home.

while during service, it's a time where i always see God's power moving in the next generation. seeing how many changed, grown and experience God's presence, the influence of this generation is going to be so stong that no walls are able to bring them down.

Apart from all the above, i believe the best part is after service for John 3:16. Simply by this short 10 min sharing, its enough to make a decision that will impact people's life.

History- Makings!

2008-11-18T10:38:00.000-08:00

2008-11-15T08:59:00.000-08:00

im thinking of the sparkling water crystals in you..
that shines beyond what people see and imagine..

are you?

2008-11-11T08:36:00.000-08:00

its the flow with diff pple.

thats how i feel.

no walls too tough.

it's going DOWN.

Like a mixture

2008-11-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

perhaps its the past,

or even now.

that makes me want to just close an eye

and shut off from the things i see

to simply place all the problems in my sight

right at the back of my head

but i know ,

no matter how i run

it wil be still there

how foolish

to even know yet pretend to shove it aside

self-denial

habits are hard to change

u choose what you want to see

maybe all the past have caused me

to choose

to simply let everything go according to how it is

right now

i've chosen a way

a way to rely

onYour strength

even if it was just 10 min

PEIWEI invasion

2008-11-01T11:47:00.000-07:00

WAHAHAHA!

Peiwei has invaded Fungqi's blog!

i changed the blogskin for her.

this girl, said she loved rainbows.

haha, i wanted to help her get a blogskin that is either super twit or emo.

but decided to spare her... awww how sweet am i? :D

oh man, it was so difficult to get a blogskin that is not emo or twit.

wassup with this twisted generation?

'tis the generation to be emo fa la la la la la la la la

even rainbows also can be emo sia!

now i know how barney went extinct, it was too cheery...

oh man, why am i crapping on funky's blog?

i have no idea. haha! oh yea and see the profile i made for her >>>

awesome huh?!

LOL, ok i shall shut up...

love PEIWEI

2008-10-24T10:39:00.000-07:00

from 2 to 12.

I give You praise.

12 precious souls.

change and mould the hearts of them.

Only You can.

At the end of the day, its not what i want them to become

but the destiny you want them to walk into.

Young, full of energy and hope.

patience , love hunger and presence.

all in all

this generation i give it to You.

This is NONESENSE

2008-10-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

I need to scream out loud!

TIMETABLE's crap.

I need Pokey now.

SCREAM NOW.

Yes.

HA.

2008-10-14T11:24:00.000-07:00

this is me. Ha Ha Ha!

now i understand why i feel man on occasions.

2008-10-04T10:43:00.000-07:00

with the irritating pimple by the right of my nose,

i cant help but touch it many times.

out of all spots, its there.

but

shall love it though it really steps on my nerves at times.

as it says ,

love your enemies.

yeah.. HA

sometimes, to have what you never have before

you gotta do what you have never done before.

simple but yet true.

wedding crasher.

2008-09-28T21:39:00.000-07:00

uncle's wedding at Ah Yat turf city was simple-eye opener-bits of awkwardness, and should i add it opened my eyes to the things unseen. hahhs.

started off with dad being a wedding crasher nearlycrashing into some random couplé's wedding. imagine you're having the best night with your love on your wedding dinner , just taking some photos outside with your relatives proclaiming to them how happy and excited you are for the night. And all of a sudden, a random guy just approaches you whom he claimed to be your relative and just waiting to take a picture with you. Ha.and that man's my dad. yeh. it sure did send me laughing out loud. what should i say.. the scene is still so clear in my mind. HAA.

(on the way to the toilet)
dad: qi, this is the first time i come to the turf citywithout any horses.
me ( with the of course its at night look): so you expect horses to be right in front of you now?
dad: of course!

dad being dad. it's just his cells .hahs.

with that aside, the wedding brought me back to gossip girl. with people turning up unexpectedly basically for other reasons drove me tó a realization of how pple really are on the inside. all the responsibilities ,burdens and survival needs seemed so light all of a sudden. ha.. pride, needs ,respect. words that came into my mind throughout the 2 1/2 hr.

is desperate really how i should end it off?
i hope not..

on the lighnote, just hanging more with my cousins and uncle's randomness made it better. time press the reach out button. pictures coming soon. alright-

lets make it subjective. no.. loving subjectively. yeah thats right.

Thank Godfor showing mé'.

till next time:)

feel the beat

2008-09-15T02:21:00.000-07:00

when the monday afternoon sets in,

everything goes back to the start

the start of a brand new week.

but mind filled with different issues each week.

though it doesnt rhymes,

just feel the beat , the same beat each time.

at the end of the day, it all changes.

some changed their sense of direction

no more the same gear

no more the same steeting wheel

no more the same accelerator

they've changed the brake.

yet the driver remains the same.

driving towards a different destination..

truth ,thats all i need to know.

Why not?

2008-08-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

fung's back.

just a little more.

blown away by Pastor Lia's sermon . It all goes back to our first step in accepting Him humbly.its back to the basics. everything was lifted up with a touch. wow.

prayer meeting was sweet.everything 's going to move to yet another level. God gave me a vision, a stronger , bolder faithful vision. it seems far and big, but still why not?

Aerina 's growing. Jody's coming.

I am going to see her in cch soon because 4d 's in control.
Jamie 's going to come too.
Regin , ming han , eileen, debbie, cindy, marjorie, elson .
if mei qi can, why not them.

creacreacreate in me a new heart
one that follows You.

ATTENTION!

2008-08-27T09:02:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION GETTER

the attention that proves our belonging in the place. no matter how little attention is given, it is still attention.the attention that we yearn and want to feel appreciated for. yeah , a different perspective , you view it .

Past 2 months have been challenging, breathtaking and reflective. ah.. Miracles,surprises and experiences for me to pick up and learn from. more and more will come.

Dear God,
i thank you for the sunshine you have poured out in my life and the joy of the Lord.

Finished fated to love you drama.though its just a drama, it sets me thinking on how the female lead is able to be like a post-it note, so willingly. hmmm...characters and personality that shapes you to that.

on a lighter note, D50 brokethrough! growth is easy.4th dimension here i come, i have the key to the door.

I see it in you.dont lose it.

2008-07-03T09:58:00.000-07:00

when i see his eyes, it just reminded me of myself a few years back. though he laughs ,giggles and put on a smile on the outside, i can sense that in his heart, he yearns and hopes for something to just solve every problem in his life. my heart breaks and just wanting to help me with what i can. no matter how much he pulls me down, how much he rubs matters in, i just want to help you. my heart's just like a boat sinking , i have noidea how much i can help. becuase i cant do greater things that will touch your heart and let you be open to it.
all i know now is to keep p.u.s.hing.

i see something they yearn for from their eyes.
h.o.p.e

dad's selling new product. i really really hope that this time round, everthing will be smooth. even though how much you persecute, i still love you. vision vision vision.
pap, you can make it.
dont look down on yourself. i never did.

down to Life Service Centre today. while on the way to night market with them. as i stand at the back , i see the kids walking . one day, they will walk into Your hands. so safe so homely.
something will happen. i believe that each and every one of them will do something great.so great and significant beyond success.

HUIJEAN!

2008-06-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

just to be by Yourside
i find hope in my life

i love this.
its short yet it always lift my spirit up(:

O' Lord no matter how tough the situations are in front of me
i know with You i can overcome it.

on a sidenote, i was real happy when Hui Jean just felt like chatting with me!!!!AH!
she's the first person that i met in tp! i know her confidence and heart is bigger than her size!

team

2008-06-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

PUT ON YOUR 3-D GLASSES <>

I CAN SEE IT COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT's the Pasir Ris WAVVVE!

lets be a team , a team to bring the revival back again!

let it not be just one not just two not just three but all in this together!

even though sometimes our feelings go down when things dont turn out to be what we expected,

we gotta ATTAck them!

neither are we going to crawl into one corner , neither are we going to keep rubbing it in.

because we are going to

PUSHHHHH

simple:Pray Until Something Happens

i see the change, i still remember the gossipy chats we had back then over the phone.they were long hours.

but now, we talk with a purpose in our hearts, reaching out to the next generation.

somthing much more impactful more significant.

its a positive change that i'll not anticipate last time.

she's only one of many.

but, all not's going to work if w're not going to work as a team.lets share the sweat, the fun, the support, the ups and downs, the fruits together.

when we're a team, we go faster not because of individual but of the teamwork that can be seen by our fuits.

not the numbers, but the souls.

its possible if you're willing to guide it,to nurture it and to believe in it.

no secret ingrdient is needed, it is just you.

2008-05-18T00:40:00.000-07:00

stretch your time

be confident

dare to dream

:add on

2008-05-09T20:50:00.000-07:00

rainbow((:

2008-05-06T09:20:00.000-07:00

lethargy has taken over my body.

but right in my mind i know i can do much more.

its just a yes or no.

when everything gets pushed to the very last min

myold habits start kicking away once again.

its not just bout fun lesiure and all.

its the sweat the fire burning in your eyes the step you take.

there's a need for me to start focusing in class

and let my spirit flow and not my flesh.

for when you will moves, you move.

poly aint just bout only bout fun ,though partially

but yeah mylife's bout the destiny and purpose i;ve found in Jesus Christ.

i wanna glorify Him,

for when alone i am not lonely

for when im in trouble He's there

for when im confused He's there to guide me

for He knows he better than i know myself.

yeah . thats it.

i wanna pour out the love He has given me to others.

Making the dreams of others come true.

not mine.

Go Girl!

its been like that since young.

you're just biased.

what can i say?

yeah middle child has no say.

but the love for you 'sstill the same.

sama sama.

love you mum

Feel it

2008-04-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

oh crap.

micro econs and accounting are drowning me .

i need to scream my lungs out.

poly's absorbing every cent of money that i have to buy the books and lecture notes.

plus, im using my own savings!!

pictures taken from Bat and yeah they're my class.

pretty cool combination from what i observed.

im dreading econs and accounts,but im gonna overcome all of them.

its just the first tutorial for nuts!

chill girl((:

when the feeling comes occasionally,

the heart beats

the thoughts run

check out for the light babe.

Practice makes it permenant not perfect/

2008-04-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i'v blogged.so i shall begin my ranting and everything.hahhs..

testimony on saturday was fab.its a real great experience!fasting and praying really works!i could feel God's presence with me on stage and thank God i was clear. overall feedback was good except for a few saying that i spoke a little too fast. But above all, i prayed that my testimony 's able to impact people ,souls to be saved ,with just that 5 to 7 min on stage. this is all i asked for.(:
D5 was love when they were behind me all the way, not to forget ian and alton and auntie yen ping for all the jokes and laughter to cool me down.=D

back to now, sch's started. its kinda honeymoon period since its first week.everything's pretty alright but more bonding's needed.and i forgot whats my class's.oh crap.
pics will be up soon!

pass me a latte
grab a seat
lets just chill
and pour everythin
im tired sometimes
looking up at the sky
i see stars.

dream a little dream of me.
phooph.
its all gone.

Always .As Always.

2008-04-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

i've realised that i've been meeting different people these past few days.
people of diff thinking problems behaviour and character.
hahhs,it sure do surprises me some how and makes me wanna love them even more!

oh well
monday was a day out with aunt to changi airport.and she insists that i am very suah gu because i've never been to terminal 3.=_=!!and i always have to remind her to lower down her voice because she sure do speak very very loud.but its a reall fun way going into her life,knowing and sharing her problems and helping her out .((:
oh yeah , and aunt brought me to a china lady seamstres and now not only i know the seamstress,but her mother and 2 of sons.haha!so cool!my aunt sure knows the neighbourhood well.her bday's this coming sun cant wait to surprise her!alright man!no more tears for her but a bright colgate smile on her face=D
oh ya fyi,students in china need to study one whole day unlike us half a day.
def thank God for that!

yesterday was cool with aerinna and brian.
when i see the smile on aerinna 's face, i felt everything was worth it.she appreciates with thanksgiving.a new generation man!
and yeah out catching up with brian in town aint too bad except waiting for 1hour for bus 518 which ended up with 2 518s coming together at a time!oh crap.and he was mistaken by the bus driver for having another ezlink card in the wallet.though we gotta respect the uncle but he's real rude.and its kinda lame to create a commotion over this.hahhs.

final day b4 orient starts and its gonna be yet another fruitful day!

Persistent Patience Pierces through Indifference

2008-04-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

If each candle determines eveery problem every obstacle in your life,how long do you want it to burn?
for your candle burns the longest, your problems remains stagnant the longest.
with the every bit of wax it leaves, the stains it remains in your heart and acts as a reminder to you.
is your candle colourful enough to add some 'colours' to you problem?
the 'colours' of which your perception your belief that changes everything in a split second.
those tt allow your probs to be seen as

Miracles and solutions.

sometimes i would wish to take a scissors and simply cut the candle into half,hoping that the problem would be so much smaller in reality. hahhs.
and when it keeps ringing in your mind ,to just face it, everything just keeps going the wrong way!just like a ball thrown against the wall and instead of bouncing back to you , it goes to other directions!as though everthing's not in your control!be it studies work relationships etc..

how many candles do you wanna light?
or should i say how many do you want to prepare for the fight.

lets increase in capacity(:
i wanna light and fight as many as i can .

keep pressing on pals..

2008-04-04T10:32:00.000-07:00

its bout home this time.
just plain simple. yeah.

2008-04-02T10:12:00.000-07:00

when hong rui said we must have the courage to ask.
it strucked me.

thoughts senarios experiences expressions everything just kept running in my mind.
i am going to be a person of courage.
let it be not just words but actions.
without actions ,you cant see your courage.
but first the idea of being one.

take the stones of fear away
IMPLANT courage in me because I M a new PLANT.

cows moo
dogs bark
cats meow
i pray

persistent patience pierces through indifference.
this is gonna be the phrase of my month.

2008-03-30T07:01:00.000-07:00

ATTACK!

it reminded me of Art Attack.
gonna start attacking all my problems!

poly's starting soon , butterflies 's in my stomach.
i cant imagine whats going to be like in future.
where i have to juggle everything in my hands.
i dont want to stop serving .
i dont want to backslide.
i dont want my mum to misunderstand me

i want to ATTACK po.
i want to ATTACK laziness.
i want to ATTACK finacial problems.

i wanna fight!!
i wanna fight in prayers!
prayers touches heaven and changes earth.
simple yet powerful.

it wrecks my heart when children teenagers adults suffers in broken families when they have no one to turn to.
when everything just seems so dark and no meaning for them.the burden for them is just too heavy.
i want to show them an alternative life.
the life that changes me from the inside out.
the light that shines in for them no matter where they are.

sometimes the world is so small because wherever we go we meet pple that we know.
but we are gonna be a BIG heart .
A big heart for every one.

I thank God.(:

The night starts here

2008-03-29T09:15:00.000-07:00

first leading in intro with ys during cch service and really sent shivers down my spine.really salute to yeesssiong!
eeverything just went hoo haaa hooo haa hoo haa!

have to be more pro active girl!
have to be more alert and not so blur!i gotta retain in my mind what they said!sometimes i just feel like taking out my brain and putting more vitamin abcdefg so that i can store more info!!!!!!!!!!!!Argh!

mistakes here and there but i'll never give up(:
its the lessons that bring me to a higher level.
The Beginning is after the End.

In Our Bedroom After The War

Wake up!Say good morning to that sleepy person lying next to you

If there's no one there,then there's no one there,but at least the war is over

it's us-yes,we're back again,here to see you throught ,'til the days end,

And if the night comes,and the night will come,well at least the war is over

Lift your head and look out the window,

Stay that way for the rest of the day and watch the time go

Listen!The birds sing!Listen!The bells ring!

All the living are dead ,and the dead are all living

The war is iver and we are beginning...

Gridlock on the parkway now,the television man is here to show you how

The channel fades to snow,it's off to work you go,but at least the war is over

She's gone,she left before you woke,as you ate last night,neither of you spoke

Disher,tv,bed the darness filled with dread,but at least the war is over

Lift your head and look out the window,

Stay that way for the rest of the day adn watch the time go

Listen!The birds sing!Listen !The bells ring!

All the living are dead,and the dead are all living

The war is over and we are beginning...

We won,or we think we did,when you went away,you were just a kid

And if you lost it all,and you lost it,we will still be there when your war is over

Lift your head and look out the window

Stay that way for the rest of the day and watch the time go

All the living are dead,and the dead are all living

The war is over and we are beginning...

Here it comes!Here comes the first day!Here it comes!Here comes the first day!

It starts up in our bedroom after the war

After the war!After the war!After the war...

what a song!

Stars spinning away on itunes.(:

dont wanna

2008-03-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

sis 's in hongkong now.
when bro asked if i misses her:'i was like yeah i do '
especially when i woke up from my sleep and realised that she's not lying beside my bed.
miss the super toady burps ,the reminders,the sarcastic remarks, her dumb expression of rolling her eyes whenever i said something real retarded.
oh well she's my coolest sis man .dont wanna exchange for any other one.(:
and absence sure makes my heart fonder.lol
ohya!
she better remember to buy my krispy kremes back and perhaps a bag or anything !!

2008-03-26T21:26:00.000-07:00

What Chew Fung Qi Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.
You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

saw this on yiwen's so just tried it out.well some were pretty true some were pretty not.
oh ya they forgot to add something.
im a Child of God .(:

2008-03-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

i lost 140 bucks.
Keds shall heal a little of my wound.

my mind's in a mess.
i need a file to sort out my thoughts.

i dislike myself for not lightening the burden.
im starting to feel weary of everything.

TIME TO RECHARGE.ALRIGHT MAN!

2008-03-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

was having a conversation with zheng hui and i thought it was super hilarious

fungqi says:
HAVE YOU CHECKED THE FOOD
zh. flu says:
but also cannot everyday la
fungqi says:
ya
zh. flu says:
HAVEN'T
zh. flu says:
HAHA.
zh. flu says:
if not confirm depression
fungqi says:
IM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU
fungqi says:
thought you super efficient
fungqi says:
LOL
zh. flu says:
WTH.
fungqi says:
go check la
zh. flu says:
SORRY I FAILED U.
zh. flu says:
i watching the game!
zh. flu says:
i watch free internet tv one
zh. flu says:
late by 2 minutes
fungqi says:
huh
fungqi says:
really?
zh. flu says:
ppl shout goal i still watching
fungqi says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
zh. flu says:
then i GOAL like so late
fungqi says:
thats super funny
zh. flu says:
but it's free okay.
zh. flu says:
so cannot complain
zh. flu says:
..

LOL
ignore the depression part though.
and he's my friend since primary 1.
HOW COOL !

2008-03-21T07:57:00.000-07:00

mum:qi,do you wash your eyebrows too when you are washing your face with the ultrafine soothing cleansing solution ?

me: of course!im washing my face right?

mum:then maybe you might notice that you will have a drop in number of eyebrows. cause the chemicals in the solution are too strong for them so they will drop.and thats what happened to me!

me:WHAT THE!MY EYEBROWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!i seriously need to do some eyebrow stock checking!!!!!!!or maybe just pick them up from the floor ,use extra strong superglue to piece them back in place. wow wow wow.

when i saw children holding their mums hands when they go shopping together, i was wondering
i have lost touch of my mum's hands.
have you?

Eight Below

2008-03-19T02:53:00.000-07:00

i realised that when people are at its peaks
they forgot the little details below them
or perhaps maybe to them where just part and parcel of life
no point cherishing these nitty gritty stuff
be it dates or wordsor whatsoever
but what they;'ve really missed
is the true meaning of holding together the true meaning of relationships

perhaps only when they 're in need or trouble or no one to turn to
they will find you since you're of use to them.haha.
humans being humans
we cant deny each and every one of us are like that.
right?

we are all people with different number of hairs diff facial features body sizes etc.
but i believe that we should treat each and every one of your neighbour with
the same attitude
the same politeness
the same tone
the same heart.

yeah i believe that individuals will be treated differently.
different luxury you so called.
but TAKE the mask down!
are you going to start gossiping and venging all your curled up anger and vent it on others.
hello we arent your pillows for nuts!

lets be true to oourselves o yeah.

sometimes i grow tired.
tired of being always the spare one.
so tired that if i can really let it all out i will splash what i wanna say right in front of their faces.
but its the paradox bout human beings
once you say everything's gone/
you have to start all over again
oh well.
i douobt any will understand what im saying.

its FUNG version 2.0

2008-03-14T06:50:00.001-07:00

chalet was supercalifragilisticexpialidocios man!
worship session was too good to be true!
the presence of God was so strong that i cried non-stop.
Prayers really work!

I LOVE YOUR TEETH
I LOVE YOUR THIGHS
I LOVE YOUR EYES
I LOVE YOU

thats what my heavenly Father my bestest friend whispered to me.(:

You dont see peoplewith your eyes but with your heart.
Lets have a heart for others.
Live Learn Lead
my mission now is to finish reading the bible in 3 weeks.
it is really kinda of cmi but i am going to obey and follow.
i am not reading any other storybook but the Word of God.
i am going to retain the Word in my heart!

we just flow man pei fen!

we dont stay stagnant.
catch the ball and dunk it into the basketball net.
even the men in 40s can do it.
what for us?

2008-03-08T07:33:00.000-08:00

Just a short call with Sister Mae Ann and i've learnt something.
how powerful is that(:

Saturday Night Fever

2008-03-08T06:52:00.000-08:00

Yolanda we brokethrough!
from 3 to 7 in a week!((:
POWERHOUSE!

yeah!
Jocelia's i church!!
andrea brought amanda too!
whoohoo!

i met 2 new people!
peck hoon and christopher!

and yeah when i saw the tears in kelly's eyes running down after i prayed for her.
i cried too.

Praise Lord.

2008-03-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

i could still remember myself crying quietly in my bed when i was pri 1.
kept thinking and promising to myself that in future i dont want my children to experience a family like mine.i dont want them to experience the hurt envious and troubles when they are just 7 years old.all the money quarrelling loveless gambling secrets are too much for a primary school student.

and as i grow older the troubles seems to pile up faster and faster.
to even adultery cold war and sex.
but i thank God that He understands me more than i know myself.
although they may have shocked me in many various ways . i still thank and love them very much.
Because it is them that caused me to grow up to be a stronger woman.

no matter what i still love you all very much because you are my dad my mum my sis and my bro.

2008-03-04T09:06:00.000-08:00

been aeons since i've stepped into a Library.
but today was special cause its with bro!
bro borrowed 3 while i borrowed one.
we spent more time trying our ways to borrow the books than browsing them
aLl becuse he 's using a replaced eZ-Link card and i stilL oweing the national library six bucks.
ended up with sixty six cents in my card.argh!
oh well..the afternoon's just short and sweet((:though i realLy dislike the journey after which to century to get his food.
and my camera's gone!

im so gonna get another one by this thurs
!

a simple yet Loving monday

2008-03-03T04:28:00.000-08:00

the weather was just right today at 1pm when i opened my eyes(:
not too sultry not to cold man
so yeah spending a day with my sis on a monday afternoon was simply too cool.
settling our bums on the antique chairs that ache was butts as ever and eating seaweed animal biscuits pipping hot korean cup noodles and our very chew marshmallows!
here comes the very interesting part..we tried to barbeque our marshmallows in a very different way.
using one lighter and a metal fork.
haha!its the urban style chewy chew marshmallows!rock on man!
we dont even have chopsticks at home so whats more satay sticks to chain them together!
but oh well sis ended with two burnt thumbs while i had to clean up the seaweeds that ended up not in my mouth but on the floor/.

its just a simple day that flickers a smile on my face(:

i still cant believe that Aili initiated a conversation with me!
peifen was Loves today!

2008-03-01T08:46:00.000-08:00

have you pondered why there isnt any guide book to how to be a good friend.
because to be a good friend not just an aquaintance you need a heart
everybody has a heart so whats hard?

but each heart differs.
your heart is different from his .

the heart of yours to Love the peopLe around you.

im stumped.
have you ever been in a situation whereby your friend shares with you his /her problems or worries
but you cant seem to understand at all
cant seem to help to attack the problem
whereby you wanna care but somehow you just dunno how to

soLord i will pray.

2008-03-01T08:26:00.000-08:00

a pure and faithful heart
obeying every word that He says .

every day is gonna be a fresh new begining!
each and ever day that im going to be excited about!
this is going to be my Life
i am going to Look forward to sch to outings to meeting new people to simpLy everything!
NEVER STOP LEARNING
when you stop you are going to be a rusty old machine that stops functioning and be burden to everybody!

and i cant wait to see mny cousin my brother my father Jocilia samuel ming han etc in church!
they are going to be saved!!!!!!!!!!!
it is possible in the name of Jesus!

2008-02-15T09:22:00.000-08:00

if only my mother and sister know what i am thinking.
i am not as simple minded as you see
you guys dont know me well enough honestly speaking
you dont know the thoughts i have in my mind
i think far not near;you may agree that everybody does
but its diff
i observe and ponder differently from others and from you

if only...

Valentine's

2008-02-13T22:29:00.000-08:00

would you not give up the dress that you have set your eyes upon just for your friend whome loved it alot too?
would you spare out some time just to have a chat with your family ?
would you not delete the photo that you looked super unglam in for your friend whom appeared to be fab in it?
would you save a portion of the sumptious looking food to your family/friends instead of finishing every bit of it?
would you love others like how Jesus has loved us?
would you be generous and not calculative in everthing?
would you be just satisfied with what you have ?
would you go the extra mile in helping someone in need to not just let her be alone over there while you are rising up ?
would you be the one creating trouble all the time ,bringing inconvenience to others?

its others not us/its hard to do it.
oh well
happy Vday!:)

and annlynn 's card for aili is fab!
its not me its you !
ROCK ON!

Runaway Bride

2008-02-13T03:31:00.001-08:00

The bus's half packed ,my ears are plugged with "In Christ Alone" and i gazed upon the sky letting the wind brush my face.
It's the same ride every day back home bus 291. Everything remains the same.
The bus driver in sbs uniform ,the seats and the route.Only the people stays diferent.
The fate in meeting different people from different works of life.

And a thought just came to me. In future when i grow up i will meet my soulmate.Will i marry him with no fear of marriage me?will i be confident in the marriage?I may be too young to think of marriage /but i will walk down the aisle perhaps one day.

How's marriage like?Is it just at another level of relationship with each other?i have no idea /my question will only be answered when i experience it myself.

i will be anxious and excited bout marriage on occassions.
but deep down,i know that perhaps when im 28 i am still going to be a runaway bride.

2008-02-11T06:53:00.001-08:00

even the most boring guy on earth will have its infinite appeal.
dont you agree?

2008-02-07T23:28:00.000-08:00

cny oeight was the best in all my years

firstly my dad joined us for reunion dinner unlike last year where his presence was not there.
this year dad put down his ego his pride and even volunteered in helping out the preparation for the steamboat.alothough it may be a simple meal there's a great significance.and i thank God for that.(:

secondly,spending cny with D5 was just FABULOUS!the steamboat the visitation the games the pics but most importantly of all the people!everthing went smoothly except the time in jieru's playground!HAA!as though the puking flu as visited D5.

so yeah lastly ,my angbao hit 1000 this yr!haha!gonna start giving!

to end on a lighter note.
my uncle's pineapple tart cost 50 cents each.
how cool can it be man.

2008-02-02T08:55:00.000-08:00

whats your dream?
whats your vision?

you are not going to make visions
visions make you

i know one day God is going to reveal my vision to me.
gonna get closer to Him like never before this year.cause its going to be amazing!

looks like my sis's getting increasingly wordly
sometimes it just bugs me from the way she speaks
but hey!she's my sister!my responsibility!
i have faith that one day we will be sisters in Christ once again!!

so right now its for me to increase in wisdom in stature and in favour with God and men!

is $100 too big for me?!
i am going to step out in faith

this is me

2008-01-31T06:10:00.000-08:00

i like to let my imagination go wild
i like art but not painting
i prefer texting to calling
i love to perform on stage even though im kinda a stage fright person
i tend to follow my emotions
im actually more of an introvert
i love countrysides
i like to be alone sometimes just reflecting the day
i love wearing bracess!
i like to be indifferent
im a comp idiot
i dislike the feeling of being misunderstood
i start lying at a very young age
i am a ChildofGod a HoGCian
i love D5
i like helping others even if it takes up my time
im messy and nto a perfectionist but i give in my best to do more than my capability
i listen
i burp a lot

this is just me the real me
sometimes when one sinks in to the environment
she changes to blend in
but its best to be me
to stand up on your own opinions and thoughts
to really learn and understand yourself better
and most importantly
you are you
no one can be you
even if your neighbour in the bus or train looks like you
you are still you
something different and precious flows in your blood
that makes you stand out from the rest.
even if you may not be as outspoken among your friends inthe group
you are still you

God the creator creates you

it just flows

2008-01-31T05:58:00.000-08:00

looks like this week i've been kinda free.
haha too free that i've been sleeping till 1pm
oh well..i better enjoy and appriciate my care free days!

sometimes when i get too free and the pace just slows down a little
i willhave the urge to do something more
perhaps something more worthy more time-consuming but yet enjoyable
its the change in me
because now i dont want to be just anymore potato couch sitting on the antique chair just bumming my day away
i used to be a best friend of my toshiba tv but now im just a good friend
perhaps one day i'll be someone its distant relative.

time passes one changes
but our heart still beats at the same rate.
its how you stay different from the rest.usin the fair share of tme
how unique isnt it

Thank You

2008-01-26T08:17:00.000-08:00

results were like so so .but i know i could have done much better . if not for geography,i could have gotta like 13 or 12.this is what happens when you dont study for exams.oh well ..i've learnt my lesson but in a real harsh way.

Right now i really thank God because He has really given me results far better than i thought.when i saw a B3 for Eng b4 for amths b4 for combined humans a2 for emaths i was real shocked!

honestly speaking,for english it was a a risk taker.i wrote about God being my hero so if the examiner's a christian..im lucky if not..haha..

As for Amths i cant add more.never in my life i've gotten a b4 for amths!especially when i flunked amths for prelims!and really gotta thank miss ang for her encouragement and never giving up on me in my amths !!! you are really more than just a maths teacher because we're believers and sisters in Christ!!!

emaths was surprising since i alwyas mantained a b3 all the way in sec 3 and 4.and really Thank God for letting me realised my careless mistakes b4 handing in of papers.now i understand how important is 1mark.

combined humans was a real shocker.studying only one chapter for history and doing ss based on my memory + not finishing one essay question to get a b4 really took me aback.

In my result slips,i see as bs cs and d . i felt the blessing from the as and bs.although the cs and d were a disappointment.i still Thank Him.because without Him i guess they were definitely going to far worser/

i will not compromise.
your words may be of threaten to me but when the words enter my ears ,i hear words of concern and love instead.
i will love and honour you like never before because you are my mum.

I lOVE YOU!

2008-01-24T08:56:00.000-08:00

i shall seek Lord
because He is the answer to everything

i pray...

2008-01-22T07:54:00.000-08:00

thurs 's the release of results

and yet i can already feel the butterflies in my stomach
its going on tons of rollarcoaster rides since dunno when!!!

AH!!

its the first time im so so so oooooooooooooo afraid of knowng the results!
ITS just a piece of paper,hello!

R
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Girl

go and view some american eagle clothes ,listen to songs ,read the bible pray and just get this load off your mind!

2008-01-22T06:59:00.000-08:00

its time for a revival in pasir ris secondary school.
i cant wait for it!

2008-01-21T00:12:00.001-08:00

its a stain.
it may or may not be removed.
some use soap or detergents to get rid of it.
but even if its gone after,it's still a stain before
there is still a mark,still a shadow behind it.
it wont be as cleaned as before.
one cant denies it.

is your stain a good or bad?
depending on the your perspective.

mine is good.

for now,
lets hold the torch with glory and not a burden.
lets be 10x better like never before.
lets live a life of others .

2008-01-12T09:46:00.000-08:00

Don't panic.I'm with you.There's no need to fear for I'm your God.I'll give you strength.I'll help you.I'll hold you steady,keep a firm grip on you
Isaiah 41:10

emotions thoughts and all have been on a rollar coaster ride these few weeks.but somehow i could hear Him telling me not to be afraid.now,with this verse,it picks me up once again and im all charged up for the any battle!!

last follow up with Jieru was a wake up call and yet something to spur me on.a picture came into my mind of my family worshipping Him!!gosh def was i taken aback.
but i will keep on praying and have faith!!

obedience is better than sacrifice

o eight is the shite man

2007-12-31T22:09:00.000-08:00

o eight is FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!
brand new start for a brand new year man
though o seven may be a bad year for me oeight wiLl def be a good yr because i know that my past is redeemed and present is secured!

so here's my o eight resooLutions
1.TO INCREASE MY FAITH IN HIM
2.bring at Least 10 friends to HoGc
3.make something /note/cookies/etc for every kid in cch
4.new generation in prss
5.famiLy to accept the fact that im a christian
6.reguaLar qt
7.bibLe study (cg -???stiLL contempLating)
eight.work hard in my studies
nine.Learn drums
10.bank to hit 5 thousand
11.(pending)hospi ?

so bring in on o eight!it shaLL be a year where boLd and confident Leaders rise up in hoGc!even if its going to be a roLLarcoaster ride in o ei ght it-it wiLL be a thriLLing one!!!!

Lets Love others hatefuLLy sacrificaLLy Like never before.